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#DearMe: A Letter to My Teenage Self.

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Dear (Slightly Younger) Mikayla,

When I first saw the idea of writing a letter to you, I found it a bit weird. I mean, I know you and you’re too hard-headed to listen to anyone, even me. But, ultimately, there are numerous things I would love to be able to tell you, wishes and warnings alike.

So, I’m writing.

From my perspective now, I know the truth of the matter is you spend a lot of time wondering what you’re doing wrong. You worry that you’re living just this side of disaster. You stay awake too many nights trying to envision something other than a question-mark future…

Stop. Please.

Everything you’re fretting over now—the friends, the classes, the feelings, the exams, the family members, the applications, the politics—none of it is going to break you. You’re going to be alright, I promise.

Okay, I’ll admit: over the course of the next few years, you’ll truly struggle with who you are and who you want to be. There’s no use worrying though because we still haven’t figured it out in the year 2015 and that’s perfectly okay. Trust me when I say that no one has their whole life figured out at 13, 16, or 21. All that matters is that you’re continuously working on it.

Remember: life isn’t a tightrope walk over a spike-bottomed canyon.

Learn to treat every day like a stroll on the beach–the tides move in and out, but you stay standing. Just enjoy the ebb and flow.

High school will pass over you like a breeze, but sometimes it will feel like hurricane-force winds and there’s really no helping that. That’s what high school is all about–learning how much pain, how much uncertainty, how much knowledge you can stand. Chickadee, high school is about survival and endurance—even when so-and-so stops calling you a friend and what’s-his-name tells you that you’re hard to love, hold tight.

You’re a military brat, you’re made for a fight.

When it comes time for university, go with your gut.  Don’t waste time in places you know you don’t belong and don’t even want to be. Be logical and be honest. The standard university experience isn’t so idyllic and it isn’t for you. Forge your own path and you’ll end up steps ahead. Freshman year, while playing an obligatory Welcome Week name game, you’ll dub yourself Magical Mikayla–make it your goal to be that person.

After university commencement, you’ll take two semesters off. Some days, you are going to swear that it’s a waste of time, that you’re wasting time, but I swear that this opportunity to be a wanderer is precisely what you need right now. Over the course of 8 months, you’ll visit 20 different states and this time, like no other time before, travel will be all you have to focus on, all you live for.

Revel in your experiences. Get caught up in simple pleasures.

In the coming days, when you’re feeling just south of sanity, you’ll remember the feel of west coast rocks and east coast sand, the sound of northwestern rain and southeastern thunderstorms, and the smell of strong coffee and harbor winds mixed together. The places you’ve been before were wonderful, but these are the places you’ll cling to and remember best. These places will resonate.

And, just like that, you’ve caught up to me.

The future is still a masked mark in the hazy distance, as it will always be, but there is an abundance of hope, desire, and ambition. There is an ever-growing collection of wonderful days and a group of delightful people who genuinely care.

There is possibility.

My ultimate wish for you is simply that, on your way from where you are in your time to where I am now in mine, you relish the journey.

With lots of love (…and feeling incredibly strange about signing this),

(Slighty older) Mikayla

17 Random Questions Tag.

YouTube is such a lovely way to fill time; but, I also really enjoy making silly videos myself. (Maybe that’s a holdover from my high school yearbook staff days…) So, I’m trying to get back into making videos and not just being part of the audience. You can check out my most recent video below and I would love to hear from those of you that are YouTubers! If you’d like to do the same tag that I did, you can find the tag questions just below the video.

Cheers, dearies!

Questions:

  1. How did you get your youtube user name?
  2. If you could change your name to anything, what would it be and why?
  3. If you could go back in time and give your younger self advice, what would it be and why?
  4. How old were you when you first learned to blow a bubblegum bubble?
  5. What did you want to be when you were little?
  6. What do you order at Starbucks?
  7. What’s the hardest you ever laughed?
  8. If you could play any musical instrument, which would it be and why?
  9. What’s your favorite thing to do when your upset?
  10. What’s your favorite movie?
  11. What’s one food you can not live without?
  12. What’s your favorite dessert?
  13. Favorite pizza topping?
  14. Would you rather have the superpower to read minds, or the superpower to be invisible?
  15. What did you do for your last birthday?
  16. If you had one personal “selfish” wish, what would it be and why?
  17. What does OMGHHKP mean to you?

 

Tomorrow Will Be Kinder by The Secret Sisters (Cover)

Please check out my cover of the song Tomorrow Will Be Kinder by The Secret Sisters. You may recognize it from The Hunger Games (2012) soundtrack. Let me know what you think!

Isn’t She Lovely by Stevie Wonder (Cover)

Please have a listen and let me know what you think.

I always get songs stuck in my head and they just go round about until I sing them enough to get them out. This is just the product of that pattern.

Thanks, my darlings!